I am exhausted and deeply demoralized by submitting to tests that don't find anything and cause harm and relapses, by doctors who do not listen to my concerns even after the harmful effects are occurring. Participating in the conventional medical system feels like madness, even for healthy people. It's traumatizing.
I understand. For whatever reason, few if any of my doctors ever wanted to do any tests or procedures on me other than bloodwork, an echocardiogram, and urinalysis on me. I had to push for much of what I got. It’s like they didn’t expect to find anything or thought I was exaggerating or they didn’t care. I don’t know. Doctors in my area don’t do much of anything. They’re lazy and complacent instead of aggressive. At least it appears that way.
After finding out I have Lyme, I have declined the annual chest xray. I haven’t had a mammogram or Pap smear since 2017. I had planned to do it this year after getting my insurance back, but things went south quickly after and I let it slide. Now, it’s like I don’t care anymore.
If I did get cancer, I don’t even know what I would do about
it. I don’t have a husband or kids to have to stick around for. Just my mom. I have CIRS/mold/MCS/biotoxin illness so it’s not likely I would/could do chemo. Radiation maybe. Surgery would be very scary - having to stop herbal treatments, anesthesia, staying in a hospital with probable mold plus fragrance on all the nurses, visitors, etc., plus all the trauma that would be on a sick, dysfunctional body and the unpredictable affect on the immune system and its response - either suppressed or hyper, leading to a cytokine storm.
Sorry, I didn’t mean to get off track like that. Oh, well!!
Post Edited (WalkingbyFaith) : 11/30/2019 7:36:56 AM (GMT-7)