Your feelings are valid and natural to have. The frustration of not being able to do what was once achievable can wear one down - even simple things like running or staying up late.
The good news for you, and this is coming from an old guy, is 35 is young. I mean young. Doesn't seem like it is until you're 36,, or 37,....., or 60. The younger you are, the better chance there is an answer will finally be found for all this B.S. you are going through. I've said it many times, but I still believe stem cells will change so much for so many sick people. Maybe in next 5 years. Who knows?
I do know my daughter, who ran college track and cross country, couldn't run for 5 weeks because of plantar fasciitis. As her coach, I thought there was no hope she would run again that season and be in a boot for weeks more. A podiatrist we went to offered a stem cell shot and said if she did it she would be able to run again in 6 days. Many questions later, I paid to have it done for her. A week later she was able to run and was back to full speed in two weeks. It was unbelievable.
While helping with the fascia in the foot is different than treating a disease or autoimmune problem, it shows the potential stem cell therapy has. And there is heavy focus on it happening and little by little we are hearing success stories about
it involving Lyme and other diseases.
As I said, you are young. As an old guy, I know 35 is young. There is time for you to make it through with new procedures, medicines, and more knowledge taking place. It's dealing with now that is the hardest part. Hang in there. You have youth on your side
. This comes from someone who does not but understands time will be the answer if enough times is left, as in your case.