That's intense. I wouldn't call them like flashbacks but it's just like memories just keep on intruding in on me. Some of them unpleasant because like you, I was abused. I was abused preverbally as well, age 1-2 as well, I was orphaned and in care then put in a f---d up foster family.
Which herbs are you taking?
I'm planning on hitting it with some rifampin, due to arrive in the next 2 weeks. I'm gonna order herbs as well because I'm sick of all this and I'm sure it's bartonella, like do you have the pain at the back of your head, base of your skull and a stiff neck? That and the psych effects, I have the most terrifying bart rage. I've destroyed 4 doors, put a huge hole in the wall and smashed so many things over the past few years and I've only just been able to admit to myself that it's probably bart as I'm so anxious about
not having a LLMD nearby in the UK.
Life ain't fun. Got no one to support me naturally. I know there's a special place for monsters who abuse children.
It's exactly like in this guys thread here: https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=30&m=3581239