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Date Joined Jun 2008
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   Posted 8/2/2008 8:53 AM (GMT -6)   
this is "Josh's Girl" but my display name has changed, for obvious reasons, detailed below.
Okay so first of all, my headaches are still pretty bad. I have another Neurologist appt on August 15th and hopefully, I'll somehow convince him to do a CAT scan and give me some kinda of closure on whether or not there is something serious going on up there.
Next- I ripped my ACL when Josh and I went to the beach. This was back on the 19th. I have an orthopedic appt. on the 13th to see what needs to happen next with it. I went to my general care Dr. on the 21st and he told me to get a knee brace and wear that during the day, take it off at night, and make sure to ice it at night before i go to bed. Yeah well it hurts like a MOFO. I can't walk up stairs (aside from taking one at a time), I can't run, I can't work out really (cause 90% of what I do is aerobics), I can't even wear heels at work... which to most women probably sounds like more of a relief than anything but for me, it sucks. i LOVE heels! i love shoes period... so yeah, anyways...
and the third and final bit of my life that has gone down the drain. Josh and I broke up. This comes two days after getting back from the beach on the 20th. It honest to God came out of no where. I have no clue what made him change his mind about me completely but something did. We had jsut gotten back from a wonderful weekend at the beach. Josh got us this AMAZING room at a local place called the Founder's inn. Its an amazing colonial inspired resort and spa. We spent the day on the beach, came back and went to a phenomonal dinner at a restaurant on the boardwalk. had breakfast in be the next morning followed by an hour-long swedish massage package that he got me. (which was amazing by the way) un be knownst to me, he had actually ordered a ring for me from a local on friday (the day before we went to the beach)
well, we get back on sunday, everything is fine. monday- fine. tuesday- i make us dinner like usual... we lay down on the couch to watch wheel of fortune and jeopardy (yes, i know we're in our 20s but we effing love those shows) and i jsut looked over at him and said "i love you". ya know, just to say it. jsut to remind him. and the he starts staring at me like i'm an idiot and (confused) i'm like "what?". he spouts off on this whole thing about how he can't go onlying to me anymore and that he doesnt love me and hasnt loved me the whole time we've been together. he even went so far as to say that no matter how hard he tried, he could never love me and doesnt understand how anyone ever could. confused
to put it nicely, i wasn't happy. i wasn't even "sad" or anything... just hurt. and REALLY mad. we had been together for abotu 7 months. I know, its nothing compared to like 20 years of marrirage, but still... he had been telling me he loved me since the beginning of april and all of a sudden that changed? like i said, i dont know what happened. I'm not even upset about the whole thing anymore jsut still very confused. as far as i know, you dont buy someone a ring if you dont love them... and why would you go and drop like $600 on a weekend at the beach  and go above and beyond to make me feel special and then break up with me?
i dont know... regardless- we're over and done with... perfect timing when my health is getting jsut that much worse and my knee hurts so bad its had for me to drive to work in the morning (i drive a manual)... it really came at a bad time but i dont guess i really get to pick when he decided to break up with me.
so yeah, dont feel sorry for me. i just wanted to give everyone an update. hope that everyone is doing better than me
Endometriosis (1999)
Depression (2003)
Fibromyalgia (May 08)
CFS (May 08)
Current Meds:
Gabapentin, Celexa, B-12, Yasmin, Darvecet
"A woman is like a tea bag; you never know how
strong she is until she gets in hot water."
-Eleanor Roosevelt


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