@loss.... welcome to Healing Well... you will find support here , and answers to your questions ... you will also find Healing Well is more of a 'family" than an eternet support group... people here really get to know each other well... support each other through thick and thin, sick and well.... depressed and happy... etc.
My name is Mary... I post mainly in the anxiety/panic forum, as well as on the depression and crohn's disease forums
I have suffered from migraines my whole life... or it seems... I remember falling off my bike at 5 years old or so... and really, really banging my head... I remember the headache and vomiting that night ; and so it began.... in my 20's and 30's the migraines were so bad I was always having to get shots of demerol and gravol at the ER.... my migraines would last 3-5 days as yours does.... it seemed that as soon as one would end the other began.... I don't know how I got through all those years... it seems every memory I have is attached to a migraine. Doctors, tried every prophylactic in the book ... nothing worked.
I too had a nursing director that raked me over the coals for calling in sick because I had a migraine....the woman had obviously never experienced one because she commented that it was "just a headache, toughen up and get your buns to work" I remember hanging up the phone in tears. I didn't go in to work that day and quickly found another job... this new nursing director did have migraines so she wasn't so quick to dismiss them.
I think your depression MAY be, I'm being very cautious here, caused by the Topamax... but my guess it is likely the effects of living with a chronic disease, the changes you have had to make in your lifestyle, the friends who don't always understand.... chronic disease is very isolating which is why a 'family' such as Healing Well is soooo very helpful.... it is a place to vent, cry, complain, despair, get angry.... unlike people who maybe mean well , but dont have to live with a chronic disease or condition... we here at Healing Well GET IT!!!!!!
Hang in there... I am so glad you have found us.... I found that after living with chronic pain and other health issues I became depressed also.... I fought the medication tooth and nail... but I have been on Celexa ( an antidepressant) for about 5 years and it has made a world of difference... plus it helped my migraines a lot.
The migraines have begun re-surfacing so my Dr. is actually thinking of upping my Celexa to see if that will make a difference.
sending you many, many healing thoughts and prayers.
51 yr.old retired RN,Crohn's D for last35 yrs..severe esophagitis, migraines,strictures,urethral stricture,depression,probable MS.,RLS, arthritis, PTSD ,general anxiety disorder.