I’ve had migraines since I was 7 years old, (22 years ago)
but the last 12 months they’ve intensified and changed significantly.
I’ve had everything checked out by my doctor, and he says everything’s
OK, and that a lot of women find their migraines change when they get into
their 30s. For the last 12 months or so I’ve noticed the day before I get the migraine
I get quite low emotionally. It’s a bit like PMS, but when I get PMS I have the
self-awareness to know that it’s just PMS… With the emotional lowness that
comes before a migraine I can’t separate it. I will be devastated over a cup of
tea, and not see that that’s not my normal reaction.
I had depression/anxiety about 4 years ago, but I’ve been
pretty good on that front for the last 2-3 years.
I’ve been going through a stressful time the last few weeks,
and as such it’s kicked my migraines up to new insane levels.
I THOUGHT I was getting panic attacks about an up coming surgery,
which lead to migraines. But then my partner (after being screamed at for the
third time this week, poor guy) pointed out that these aren’t the like the
panic attacks I used to get.
Last time I had panic attacks, pretty specific things set
them off. I had very high ‘baseline,’ stress, and the emotional state persisted
well after the attack.
But there’s not really the level of consistency with what
sets me off this time. I had a massive attack yesterday after a consultation
with a surgeon… But other doctors’ appointments haven’t set me off.
I can acknowledge that I’m really nervous, to the point of
being stupidly scared over such a simple little procedure… Except when I get a migraine.
Throw a migraine into the mix and my
Five times now the same thing has happened.
I get really disconnected.
I get a small visual aura.
I get really, REALLY angry. (I have never been as angry as I
have been with these attacks.)
The anger bursts, and I get this crushing wave of self-hatred
Then I get the full visual aura, “Alice in wonderland
symptoms,” numbness in my face (although I can move it) sporadic numbness
throughout my body, marked hearing loss one ear, and a very loud ringing in the
My eye feels like it’s under a giant contact lenses, and according
to my partner looks as if it’s under a layer of plastic. (Only on the side of
pain.) Which is also new, I've never had any observable signs of a migraine before.
Then it’s like a switch is flicked off on all the emotions and
I get the headache, which is significantly worse than the ones I have been
The next day I’m utterly exhausted, very emotional, and
still feel like I’ve been hit in the head with an axe.
I’m curious to know if anyone has experienced something like
this with their migraines, and if you have how do you separate it from an
actual panic attack?
If it IS part of the migraine, would there be a way to stop the process? I can't keep doing this to my partner, and the stress of the idea of when it's going to happen next is perpetuating the issue.