April, what you describe is what I experienced -- a slow sneaky development over time -- and what my body told me loud and clear was an addiction when I went through a weekend headache without my easy-fix drug. Life was easier with Relpax, yes, because I wasn't so vigilant about avoiding my known triggers--after all, I had a drug I could reach for if I got myself into trouble, right? Now life is very different--ruled by headache avoidance more than headache experience. This is not the life I want to live and I am going to do everything I can to get past this phase. I'm going to call it a phase, anyway.
I saw the neurologist this week; weaned off Topamax, 3 days clean, and then I will begin Neurontin on Sunday. I pray that it will be at least as effective as the Topamax was for me, without the side effect of weight loss, which I cannot afford, and without any other offensive side effects. I know it's a crap shoot -- we'll just have to wait and see.
I am eager to be among you brave souls out there who are going drug-free, but I guess I need a little more time between me and severe migraine pain, and frequent migraines, before I'm willing to go there. I feel like I'm in a rest-and-recovery phase at the moment.
jpjr50, it sounds like you went through a real nightmare with Relpax. I wonder what your migraine experience is now that you're off all preventive meds (and treatment meds?).
Thank you guys for the conversation.