Hi everyone. I just posted the following in the depression forum as well. I need help tackling my powerful chronic pain and anxiety, and am hoping people can share their experiences and insight with me. To make a LONG (depressing) story short…
Spring 2013- Switch from the Lexapro I had been on for 7 months to PROZAC (Lexapro made me too tired & gave me occasional psychotic depressive episodes).. while another doctor of mine suggested I try birth control since my periods are horrible. So I began these 2 new medicines around the same time, and since then, I have had a headache EVERY SINGLE DAY for 21 MONTHS. I was born with depression & mild anxiety. As a teen this became more apparent (hence being put on Lexapro at age 19)
Fall 2013, my psych had me switch from PROZAC to ZOLOFT, when i told her I thought the Prozac had created this headache (the birth control I went off of almost immediately). The zoloft helped the headache moderately but gave me panic attacks. So at the end of 2013 i said NO to anti depressants, against my psych's wishes. Around the same time I was robbed at gun point, and still suffer from PTSD. Of course, my headaches, and psychological problems, came back with a vengeance at that point.
December 2013- submitted a leave of absence to my university, have not been in school since.
Jan 2014-today- I have tried every type of headache treatment out there. Botox, acupuncture, herbs, vitamins, injections, triptans, etc. Ive seen dozens of specialists and doctors and tried even more medications. The depression is unbearable. I truly want to be dead. I don't leave my house unless its for a doctors appt. The pain is never below 5/10, usually 6.5/10, occasionally goes up to a 9. Nothing touches it. I am just weening off of a beta blocker i tried (again) for a few weeks but it turned my toes blue and made me more depressed.
I NEED RELIEF FROM THIS HEADACHE AND DEPRESSION!!!
I have a very hard time tolerating medicine. I am a POOR SEROTONIN TRANSPORTER. I found this out after doing a genetic test last year. When I mentioned this to my psych she had no idea what to do with the info…. hello…. it means I won't be able to tolerate SSRI's for one thing (which I had been on for 14 months). I tried Cymbalta for 2 days last summer and thought I was dying so i immediately stopped that. I tried Nortriptyline for 2 weeks and became very angry and the headache became so bad I had to stop. I am so depressed that i WANT to go on anti depressants again but everything I've tried has made me feel absolutely insane or I just can't tolerate the initial side effects. Any depressed chronic migraine/headache sufferers out there? please I need serious help. I can't take it anymore.