I am at a loss. I have spent hundreds of dollars on doctor visits, specialists, various tests, and meds to find a way to help my migraine problem. I'm beginning to think they are psychological. Do you have any input?
Here is my story.
Since my 30th birthday, I have had migraine headaches. They were few and far between until January of this year (almost ONE year ago). In January, I begin having migraines once or twice a week. It then escalated into a 3-5 occurrences. In March I was having them EVERY day... Now...the good part about this is that I was able to function with them. I was able to do my job, do my normal duties even with the migraine. Yes, they were severe, they hurt, and they were often highly stressful...but I was able to do what needed to be done.
Over the summer, I went off all my medications to see if that would ease the migraine occurrences. I went off my anti-depressant (I'd been on those for over 2 years) and my birth control. It didn't help. The migraines continued...incessantly. At one point I remember thinking that this would just be my life and I would have to accept it...
And then in September--they stopped miraculously...on a day when I ate 3 full meals. I normally didn't do that. In fact, I rarely ate breakfast, and I only ate dinner if I had my son. So I started eating 3 meals a day and one snack.
From September through the end of November, the only migraines I had were when I had my period--but that was bad news too. These migraines were debilitating. I have missed work twice because of migraines. Also, these migraines that did occur (though very infrequently between September and November) were so painful that I often cried and threw up. I had only had this painful of a migraine ONCE in the two years since I had begun getting the migraines.
In December, the daily migraines returned. I now cannot function with them. I am in horrible pain almost every day. I just want to cut my head off sometimes. I can truly understand why some migraine sufferers commit suicide--the pain is too much to bear. (I would never take my own life as it is against God's word, but I do understand the desperation those people must have felt).
While I once thought it was the malnutrition--though I had always not eaten much--that caused the migraines, I now wonder if they aren't being triggered psychologically. September to December was when I dated my last boyfriend. When I didn't have the headaches, I think I was happy. Shortly before our breakup, I began getting the migraines again--like I KNEW what was going to happen--what I KNEW I should have done first.
However, I don't feel depressed, but there is no elation, no desire, no nothing. I just feel "normal" yet all the while having these horrible migraines.
I still force myself to function with these daily migraines, but it is a constant struggle. I refuse to let pain cause me to be unhappy.
MEDS I've tried--
Topamax--I took it for six weeks and it never affected the migraines.
Blood Pressure Medication--took for six weeks, no affect.
Different birth control pills--never seemed to help
Imitrex--works but always takes about 2 hours to "work its magic"
Butal/Apap--some type of prescription (non-narcotic) pain med. Helps only on minor migraines...which I haven't had lately. :(
Tests I've had--
I use Imitrex (pills only 25 and 100 mg), Butal/Apap (isn't working so well anymore).
I am also taking birth control pills and skipping my period each month.