why so downcast oh my soul

~well, had another killer of a migraine this week. Ended up in noisy walk-in for hours, but did get a shot(without any bad looks or questions). Slept for like a whole day, and its gone. I'm just so tired. This is my routine every week. Doctors don't even know what to do anymore and they don't want to give me pain meds, which I understand, but then after hours hanging over the toilet, and sleeping on the bathroom floor holding my head and in the fetal position, I want a shot. I know its not good for me to get a shot every week. I guess the Keppra they put me on after Topamax(kidney stones and congnive changes) isn't working. THe Topamax did wonders for the migraines but I couldn't take the side effects. My neuro. says the only thing else he knows to do is send me to the Diamond Clinic(which I cannot afford). My PCP wants me to go to counciling. I had an ER doc. call my PCP saying he thought I was drug seeker. spent hourts explaining to PCP, things much better now, but I still have been labeled other places now.... Its so frustrating. I want to go to college, I want friends and a life. I don't want drugs, pain, ect. No one in the medical field seems to get it. They just think since they can't see anything, its not ALL physical in nature.

AngMichelle, I am so sorry you are still having such a tough time. Do you have MSN or Yahoo messenger? If you have either one or both, and you would feel happy to pass them on to me, please email me with your addy's for them, I would love a chance to talk to you properly! But don't worry I understand if you don't want to!

Just my opinion, but I think you would find it very helpful to see a counsellor, and wish very much there was a way you could get to afford the Diamond Clinic.

I know everything in you just now wants to give up - been there!! But hang in there girl, keep fighting and you will get there eventually.

lots of love and ((((hugs))))

Ann

Oh my gosh.