I left you a reply on the CP forum. I completly understand where your coming from, and i wish I can the words to fix it all.
Just one thought. Have you ever heard of the Law of Attraction?? The Secret??
Its basic point is that our thought can actually attract things into our life. For example, when I was sick all the time, my thought process was, I'm always going to have migraines, always be on meds, always be in pain, and it was like i was putting in an order for the same things. Once I got to a place where I changed my thoughts to,
I AM WELL, I have all the engergy I need, I CAN, (i didn't even put the word migraine into the thought like "i don't have migraines, b/c your body is still hearing migraine'
I am hear to tell you that this works. You should get the DVD of The Secret. Its long, but if you apply the law of attraction into your life, it really does change things.
Point being, pre-medicating is almost like your body putting in an order at the drive through, and shortly you'll just drive around to pick it up, and a migraine hits you.
Does this make any sense??
I encourage you to look up Energy med, Law of Attraction, and Psych-k. If nothing else, read and do what is in the post on CP forum, maybe this one too actually, about
the 5 mintute energy routine. do it an extra time on the days you work nights, or feel a migraine coming on. What will it hurt??
Best to you my friend
DX-Migraines:Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome:
I am WELL!!
Meds: ProzAC 40mg, Klonopin 1mg BID , Ambien 10mg
PRN- Imitrex INJ, Pherergan, Actiq 600mcg(fentanyl suckers) for migraine breakthrough pain
NO MORE MEDS!!!! Doing engergy medicine
May God give you a reason to smile today, an extra reason to laugh, and bring joy to your soul.