I've gained a host of new friends. There of course were the ones who vanished when I became ill. Miraculously there were a different type of people that then entered. Less shallow, full of compassion and affirmative as well. I'm so very thankful for them. On a bad day, i can get a call from one I'm thinking of now , and it just totally picks my spirits up. I give back to the frienship as well. I've learned to nurture relationships much more like they are priceless. They always were, but I didn't always act as if they were.
My children-ive learned that even when they ask about
MS that they don't want to know. I dont blame them. It's hard for them to hear any bad. I try to tell them the good things also but they simply think im invincible. After they ask, and before they allow me to answer, they say "you'll beat it mom, you've always beaten everything". (if they only knew haha).
It's made me seek God with more drive. I intensely want to know his thoughts on MS. How he views what we go through. I also seek a healing. Not from a man who claims to have that ability, but from the "great physician", i never need an appointment; money; list of symptoms; bag of medicine, or have a fear that he will minimize me.
I've learned that life is good. The old saying "you don't know what you've got, until it's gone is so true", so I try to embrace what I do have. I've found myself in catholic churches giving ulogies (sp) and I'm not catholic. I venture out of my own comfort zones as I wish to experience as much as I can. To learn of others and their beliefs and ways.
Christmas! Until this year, christmas wasn't a good thing for me. My childhood ones were atrocious, then my father passed away 2 days before christmas. This year however, at the first sound of a carol being sang, I became full of joy. Joy of life. I looked at everything as if seeing it for the first time. It wasn't a hassle to decorate and I'm not yet finished putting it up yet. With the snow on the ground and the fire going, it just feels so very good.
I'm beginning to take online classes soon. I have all the info to begin and probably wont make it in until June, but I'm excited about
that. I might have to make more lists for memory's sake but this has made me stop procrastinating alot of things.
Traveling. I see the world now. I simply save and go, come back and save and go. I make sure they are places I've always wanted to see and things that my children can learn from. Pearl Harbor for example. Next stop-Colorado.
Rhonda? I think you have a great thread here, and I appreciate the chance to participate.
I'm also glad I found this board of supporters!
I've gained a love for life
Every day brings us closer to what we reach for .........in all things.
Post Edited (Kiera) : 1/5/2008 5:48:32 AM (GMT-7)