Posted 9/20/2009 4:52 PM (GMT -6)
Hi all, I haven't really been around for a little bit but some of you might remember that I'm getting a divorce, found out wife was cheating on me....anyways things haven't gotten any better for me. I'm afraid that I'm seriously depressed and to make things worse, this past Fri night I got pulled over and charged with my first DUI. also some pretty hefty fines. money that I don't have at all. So the next morning i woke up and was feeling really down in a hole (a deep one) and felt almost like I didn't have a purpose anymore. I almost still do, and as I sit here with my two children which i thought would make me feel better, I don't at all. I have gone through alot these past 3 years ( my father dying, being dx'd with MS, falsely accused of a very serious crime, wife cheating on me, and going through this divorce, then the DUI) i feel like I'm being pounded into the ground deeper and deeper every day. I want to go get help, and my mother does also, but I just don't want to go that low. I don't want to sit in the hospital with a bunch of other people who want to die too. I also think maybe I should go get some help for my drinking, which unfortunately is becoming my crutch. Don't know what to do. Just wanted to get some stuff off my chest. Talk to you all later.