I think it would be great for you to visit the breast cancer forum. They will be able to help you with meds, coping etc...
I did have a hard time with acceptance, but it didn't eat me up too much. Looking in the mirror was hard, I did have reconstruction which has helped immensly! That was over 8 years ago.
You have every right to all that you are feeling, write it all in a journal and that way you can look back and see how far you have come! I know you are a Christian and that is going to help you thru all of this, also!
"Life shouldn't be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving
safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather, to skid in
broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly
shouting...."Wow! What a ride! Thank You Lord!!!"