Pardon me in advance for just jumping in with both feet but here goes. I was dx'ed a year ago, counting the ON that lead to my dx I have had three total flair ups. An ON in the other eye and most recently one leg quit working and the other side of my body became numb.
MRI's show lesions on the brain, c-spine and t-spine. The first eye came back 100%, the second eye came back to about 20/50 with correction, the legs are both working and the numbness has subsided a great deal.
I still work 5 days a week, take care of my wife and kids. Heres my problem, somwhere on this journey I accepted that I am going to lose my vision and most likely the ability to walk. no logicly I understand that this is an unreasonable thing to accept. No one can predict the course this will take but I somehow have decided how its going to be.
Now while I keep on doing everything I've always done, I walk around each day wondering if today will be the day it changes. I'm not being fatalistic or anything. I know even if those things happen life will go on and I always trust that God will take care of my family and myself.
I don't know why I am writing this really, I suppose I am just wondering if anyone else has experianced or is experiancing this. If so, how did you or are you dealing with these feelings?
Thanks for letting me vent.
Take care all,
"If you don't talk to your cat about catnip who will" - CCL
Post Edited (Papa_Bear) : 9/20/2006 6:26:40 PM (GMT-6)