I understand how you feel, it is awful. My fatigue was so bad that I went from working days (never a set schedule, one day would be 9-7:30pm th next day 6-4:30pm, one day off then work 2 or 3 etc) to nights which is a set schedule sat thru tues. That seems to work much better for me as I can just sleep and relax for 3 days in a row. There are some days when I need to do errands that I just can't I am soooo tired.
I work for a hospital and need to be careful about
calling in, they will fire you, go figure! Needless to say I will drag myself in and if I am really bad they will send me home BUT it is recorded (I end up getting bronchitus so they send me home for that not knowing it is my ms). I need the insurance so I HAVE to work and I bought my house last june 05. We just have to push ourselves really hard some days just to get through it.
Rhonda is so right about
the stress which adds to depression, so on those awful days I try to make a list of all the things I am grateful for at that moment like I have yummy ice cream, I have a good book to read, my best friend will call me later today, the sun is shining etc.
I do hope you feel better and anytime you need us we are here for you. Hope my 2 cents helped a little.
EVERY DAY I WAKE IS A NEW POSITIVE BEGINNING
Dx 08/02/06 MS