I have FINALLY returned to work, YAY! But find that my memory, or words, are not what they used to be... I believe I may have some sort of aphasia where I can't find the words to say what I am thinking. Even if I know inside and out about the topic I am needing to discuss. At home my husband is coming to terms with me saying "uhm ahhh" with a frantic look in my eyes, or saying "I need to take a toilet" instead of "I need to take a shower." At work, I am an RN. I have been recently approached about getting promoted, but I find this word thing is going to prevent that.
All through my shift, I spend time reading the history of my patients so when report time comes I can give a thorough report as well as do my job to the best of my ability while I am on shift. When I am physically working, and not having to verbalize any information to a coworker, I know EXACTLY what I need to do and why. I am not lost, I am not confused. However, I am sure I look lost and confused because people tell me this. My boss is telling me in order to get the promotion I "need to work on knowing my patients history." I KNOW THEIR HISTORY, but how can I show this when I can even say the stupid words to prove it? In report I find myself saying that "It's complicated" about patients who have a long, unique history.
I keep myself organized by writing info down, which helps a lot. But I can't write down 20 pages of history... I don't have the time nor the space on the single sheet of paper I carry. I remember numbers really easy, which can seem kinda strange for me at times... But knowing whats in my head and not being able to speak it is REALLY strange at times.
Does anyone know anything that may help me with this? For my job in particular. How can I organize myself better so I can speak better when I need to?
Thank you in advance.
Oh yeah my liver is not functioning so well so my doc took me off all my meds, and lately I have been having more good days then bad! And no needles! My liver will be fine soon so no worries there... then back to the drugs...
Diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis September 2003 currently taking Rebif, Cymbalta 60mg PO QD, and Provigil 200mg PO BID.