Today my fiance and I were out and the car started overheating. No big deal, we got it towed in for service. Well we found ourselves out in the pounding rain, with no ride home. It was rush hour so taking a cab would have cost a fortune so we decided to take the bus. This was fine, until we got near the bridge and it was totally backed up and not moving. The bus was SO packed, so we had to stand. about 10 minutes in it hit me that I wasn't going to make it standing on that bus for what could be an hour. Fatigue hit me and I just needed to sit, it felt like my legs didn't want to hold me up anymore. I told my fiance we needed to get off the bus and go sit, maybe wait out rush hour, so we did.
You're probably wondering what my point is.. lol. My point is, it kind of hit me today, that I am sick, I am not like everybody else anymore, and I couldn't just "tough it out".
I also got a new supervisor at work, and the old one said he would talk to him about me, my situation, and the reduced schedule I'm on.
I guess I didn't think that this soon into this MS thing I'd have special needs. It didn't feel very good to realize I'll never be "normal" again. Although, I've never been normal mentally, so at least the body matches the mind... haha.
Thanks 4 listening, hope you all are well.
Diagnosed with MS April 2006
Longstanding anxiety and depression
Currently on Betaseron