So - the search for answers continues - I really truly am beginning to believe this is all in my head (sigh).
My MRI of the brain was normal according to the radiologist - "No space occupying lesions" which I assume covers MS lesions. I would have bet a million there'd be something, especially with my headache history - don't migraines cause lesions too? Anyway, I suppose I'm happy, but MS was oddly enough something I would have been ok with - it's manageable for the most part - there are meds to help with all this stuff - certainly I'm not saying I'd be excited to have this diagnosis, but I guess, it would have ended the wondering and the fear and mostly it's a non-fatal disease - instead, I continue to feel awful, have all these things wrong, with no answers, thus no meds to help. The headaches continue, the dizziness, poor balance, numbness to my face and arms, the pains in my legs, the muscle twitches, pain when I move my eyes, occassionally blurring vision - all of it - still here. Why? According to the MRI - there is *nothing* wrong with me.
And to make it worse? Two days ago, when my follow-up neuro appt. was, my power went off, and I overslept - missed my appt. I Never oversleep - ever - but I did. They are down two neurologists, and it takes up to three months to get in, so now, I might have more input (not that there is anything to add, I guess) come about September. I was so depressed I didn't even call - I guess I'll get to it tomorrow.
Sorry - don't mean to sound like a downer - I'm truly happy, I just hate not knowing and feeling like I'm imagining the fact that I can't walk across the house without falling over two or three times.