this is my first time here, i was diagnosed last year with relapse remitting m s i really think i didnt face up to it and i think that i've really been in denial, i just started avonex and had my 3rd injection last tuesday. i really would like some one to talk to who understands what im going through. im 22, i have 2 little boys one 2years and one 3years. i was happy and really coping well with being a mam and the whole family thing. i got married to my husband 3years ago and up until my diagnoses everything was great! my parents separated 2years ago and just a couple of months ago my sister who i was very close to emigrated. so all in all ive had a lot of things going on. i dont have any friends as all of my friends from before are still clubbing and parting while im at home with my kids so ive just lost touch with all them, they just didnt understand me anymore.
so now im in this situation with this horrible disease. i absolutly hate needles ive had a huge fear since i was a child, my husband is giving me the injections. but the reason ive come on here is because ive started to feel really down, im angry in general, im impatient, cant sleep, thinking really strange thoughts. today i was driving in my car and feeling very low and a thought came over me 2 drive into an oncomming car. i didnt. i would NEVER actually do it. its just i dunno if this is because of the avonex or is it me. im really at an all time low and in need of some help!! before i was happy, outgoing and generaly a very positive person. i think that i hide what im feeling very well so everyone around me thinks that im coping great and they say "ur so positive" or "u look fantastic" little do they know what im feeling inside. i have told my hubbie everything but as much as he tries he can't understand.
has anyone else suffered the same feelings? i just feel really isolated, restricted and trapped.
please help me out,