Normally, I can see the positve in just about every circumstance in life. I have to say, I desperately search for reasons to be positive when it comes to having a bag. It is not the life style change that effects me so much, it is the mental challenge of constantly knowing my bag is there. I can feel it all the time under my clothes tugging on me. I am continuously aware that I have an annoying plastic bag hanging from my sagging abs. My abs used to be one of my best features. The members of my fitness classes at Lifesyles would comments on my nice stomach and thin waist. Now, I feel frumpy, saggy, and have sroma that gets clogged when I eat cottage cheese! Everyday is a mental fight to remind myself that it's not that bad. I could be dead. I could be sitting in the hospital living on jello. Tonight I am making grilled chicken breast with lemon pepper for dinner. IF I can get this spinach to pass, I might be able to eat some. Of course, I cannot eat the brown rice and carrots mixed with sweat peas because neither of these can pass my stoma. But, I can eat chicken. Two years ago that was not even an option for me.
Ask, thank you for giving me the chance to vent with you today. I appreciate the reminder that I am not alone in this process.
Revised Coletomy/ Reset Anastimosis 2006
Revised Colectomy/ Obstructions 2005
Sub-total Colectomy 2001
Prov. 16: 20 Whoso trusteth in the Lord, happy is he.
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