Post Edited (Ash83) : 3/25/2008 8:45:31 PM (GMT-6)
I'm so sorry to hear you are going through all of this. Its just not fair. My surgery was planned but I went through alot of the stuff you described although i dont remember most of what happened in the first four weeks. I think it's partly because of the drugs and partly because I have blocked it out mentally because it was all just to traumatic. I did get really depressed though and they put me on antidepressants. After I got out of hospital I stopped taking them but they just helped to get me over that bump.
I can't imagine what it would be like to have flashbacks of all the things that happened. I can understand why you feel so uneasy and anxious about everything when this happened so unexpectantly.
The only thing I can suggest is maybe speak to your Dr. and see what he suggests, maybe counselling might help. Or some type of medication. Sorry I wasnt much help.
I hope things get better.
Post Edited (lbw) : 2/13/2008 2:26:24 AM (GMT-7)
I am so glad that you gave in to the Lexapro and that you are seeing good results! I bet it feels good to "think" normally and not even realize you are doing/feeling any different now. I am so glad to hear that update on you.
Ash, if I'm remembering correctly, don't you and your fiance live quite a distance from eachother? If so, that's got to be tough. Is there any way one of you could move closer, so you could see eachother more? Just a thought...