Ok, it's strange physically I'm swollen up like a beach ball with a belly full of poop.The pain hurts so bad i could cry. Mentally, however i've never been happier. After 10 years I finally feel free from my eating disorder. I went to therapy and he said im finally enterin phase 2 which is huge it's like AA and the 12 steps. Physically I hv to use enema everyday so I can eat. All i can eat is cheerios and pbj sandwiches it's all I can handle, I am running out of room fast. Mentally, I have finally convinced myself it's ok to eat and it's ok to allow myself to enjoy the food I'm eating. the irony
Right now I am holding onto my piece of hope and basing my salvation on my dr. 5 more days, im gettin worse physically but mentally I've never been better. I hope everyone is doing well, just take a moment to thank urself for being ALIVE!!!