alright i did something else totally fun that i have never done, i hope it's ok for me to tell this on here!!! we bought rock band last week, so friday night my friends (the same ones from the pudding, lol) came over and for the first time in my life, i got compeltly and totally drunk! i was always afraid to do that before, with all the meds, and didnt really feel like it anyway. It was so exciting, lol. Isn't it strange that at 31 i am finally doing that for the first time We had an awesome time, we played rock band for 8 hours, lol ate cheeseburgers and chips and stuff and i went to bed at 5 am! again stuff i hadnt' been able to do for years! my husband says i am turning back into a teenager, and i said, no i am just trying to get back some of what i lost! Let me make it very clear though, that my child is taken care, with my grandma for the night, and someone always stays sober in case of trouble with anyone else, or with anyones kids, just so ya'll know i am not a bad person or anything, lol.
yay for energy and finally having fun again!