I am so glad that you got your staples out. it must feel good. As for the losing weight thing, I remember reading your last post that you lost 30 lbs. I know how losing the wieght feels. To me it made me feel great. I was 115 lbs. before surgery, had 10 lbs. of air in me during surgery,which made me 125 off the oprerating table, to get to my colon because of my small body size. Then as soon as I started walking and pooping, I lost weight so quick that it felt good. trust me i was so constipated I probably had a lot of weight in my colon, I am not sure how much, but when I saw my surgeon for a follow up, he said I had a ton of weight from poop in my colon, and that is probably why he had to pump me up with air, because my weight would have been alot thinner off the table if he did not do that. when I lost all of that weight it felt like I was free from this colon that was weighing my body down. To make a long story short, I lost so much weight that I am enjoying every minute of it especially when I fit smaller sized clothing, which makes me feel good. I had an eating disorder when I was a teen, but had constipation problems since childhood. My stomach problems goten worse in the past year and a half, and that is why I had my total colectomy. I only had my anorexia for a couple of years, back in 1994-96, so the doctor said it was not because of that, but because my colon was probably born slow, as my mom suspected. I can not remember that far into childhood, but my mom told me and my doctor at my appointment yesterday that I had so much constipation as a child. When your 30 years old and had a lot in life, like me it is very hard to remember what I did before the age of 12. I only remember very important events, like weddings and all of the eventful events. But anyway I hope you are feeling much better. I know I am not a counselor or any doctor, but I would probably go to conseling. I am actually starting to go back to conseling myself, since my mom feels that I could have a breakdown again like I did after my rectal prolapse surgery due to having to deal with that. As of now, I actually feel alot better physically, mentally, and emotionally because I am not longer sick, and actually enjoying life alot better, but you know moms. I live in my own apartment but my parent's are a big part of my life. I actually recovered at their home because it is very hard to do it myself, and without them, I would not know what I would have done. It was my mom who supported me during and after my surgery. She is a great mom. She stayed with me in the hospital, and when recovering at her home, she took care of me so well. my parent's are a good send in my life. Do you have any family or loved ones, because they are the best support, besides this forum, to go to. With love and support,especially from others, it makes recovery alot better. Having the motavation that I am loved made me feel so good that it made me focus on what is important in my life and it is helping me recover, so I can think of all of the great things I am going to get to do with my family, like go out to eat again and not have to worry about not finishing the meal, or going places without having to feel sick and bloated and have more energy to do things. I know I only had my surgery a month ago and still going to the bathroom alot, so at this point I know what foods I can and can not tolerate, so when I do go out, I know what I can eat, like plain fish or chicken that has been broiled or baked, but not fried or breaded, with cooked veggies like peas and carrots. I know I can not handle fast food, but at least if I do go out to eat and have the things I can tolerate, I can actually finish my plate without feeling sick, so if me and my family want to go to a movie or shopping after, we can instead of having to go back home because I feel sick. Don't worry everything will take it's course. We all have our little kinks in life along the way, since our surgeries are very big surgeries and can be overwhelming. But the best part is We did it and we should all be proud that we all made it through this and also that we have this forum and everyone init to look forward to for support. I know I made it through and that i am still figuring out the ups and downs and what lies ahead as for some aspects like what foods to eat, and that is why I am here. But having the colon removed and the constipation and the sick feelings gone is one giant step towards a great life. I hope I have answered some of your questions. I hope all is well and good luck, and congrats on your surgery and getting those sticthes out.