I was scared too but after my first consultation with my surgeon I felt relieved. I knew from my surgeon's confidence that he could fix me once and for all. He was the only doctor I had in over 2 years that said I would feel better after he operated and he was right. I know from where you are sitting that you cannot imagine a life different than the one you have but it will be better. You will be surprised at how those two body parts, the colon and rectum, can make you feel worse in other places. The toxicity has been dragging you down. I hope and pray for your renewed health, you deserve it!
dx proctitis in 1987
dx UC in 1991, was stable until 1998
1998 started prednisone, asacol, pentasa, nortriptylene, ativan, 6MP, rowasa enemas and suppositories, hydrocortisone enemas, tried the SCD diet, being a vegetarian, omega 3s, flax, pranic healing, yoga, acupuncture, probiotics
2000 lost all my B-12 stores and became anemic
2001 opted for j-pouch surgery- now living life med-free