You guys are the greatest and you all have wonderful advice. I've been doing a lot of thinking over the weekend. Well, it all started with Saturday. My husband and I spent the day out doing things and then we went out for dinner and I had fun and I was fine. Sunday was ok too, we got up and went to church and the day was ok after that. Then yesterday was absolutely miserable and I think I've got it figured out. Due to this whole thing I have completely lost my roles in life. Before surgery I was a wife and mother and I fulfilled those roles. I also had a job outside the home and was very active in my church. Now since surgery I am not active really in any of my roles. My boys have all gotten used to going to my husband for everything. My husband has taken over the housework and cooking duties so there goes my wife and mother roles. I had to quit my job before surgery because I hadn't been there long enough to take a leave of absence. As for church, I'm not as active any more because of the surgery either. So basically I lost my identity and I feel like I have nothing anymore. I just sit in the house. I could probably take on more of the housework and cooking but everything seems to run so smoothly and I've been so down I have lost the desire.
So, on one hand I sit and complain that I have nothing and I am nothing and on the other hand I won't do anything to fix it. What a mess I am...
35 years old
Chronic Lifetime Constipation
Diagnosed IBS - 1995
Rectal Prolapse - February 2007
Rectosigmoid Colectomy w/low anterior Anastomosis - March 13, 2007
Diagnosed with Colonic Inertia - June 08
Total Colectomy - September 22, 2008
Temporary Ileostomy due to small bowell perforation Septepmber 29, 2008
Ileostomy Reversal - December 15, 2008
Multiple Small Bowel Abscesses-December 22, 2008
Leak at original Anastamosis -December 25, 2008
JP Drain removed - January 23, 2009
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