I am the most recently excited b/c I spent all week with my son with no help. My mom did do my dishes a few days ago...but I've been keeping up on them too for the most part. But do you know how excited I am about finally taking over complete and total Mommy-ness?! Whoo-hoo!!!!!!!!
My son can tell a difference too...he's just been more apt to want my comfort and my loves...when we had a lot of help from family he would go to just about
anyone but me.
That made me very sad. But no more!!!
Then as I posted recently I had the extreme urge to pee. I do know how silly that sounds, but it was pretty awesome to me! I was literally sweating b/c I had to go so bad, and I really didn't care b/c I would rather pee myself than have an emergency UC moment...so bring it on bladder!!!
I do remember driving by myself for the first time...I just ran a few errands close to home. However, my first trip to the store was so liberating! I lolly-gagged...I read labels...I looked over all colors, sizes, etc. It was awesome! My tummy and ostomy area was in extreme pain, but whenever no one was around I slumped over my cart and kept on truckin'.
Also, going to the store with my son on my own was the most fun! Now, once I got home I had to call my husband to come home from being out and about
socializing with family, as I was sore and overwhelmed. He's been the most amazing support!
Oh!!! And the food!!!!!! My first week or two home almost every meal were frozen chimichangas with loads of sour cream...almost every meal involved sour cream!!! I LOVE SOUR CREAM!!!! I ate cheese!!! I had favorful food!!!! Even some spicy foods!!! Just the other day I had super spicy cheese dip and I was so scared...some feelings die hard...and I didn't get hurt!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've had so many firsts. Our fourth anniversary I realized my attention was never fully on those around me b/c I spent so much of my energy try to cover my pain and exhaustion. I'm able to give all of my attention now...Wow. I never knew my attention on others had been compromised.
I can see my ankles. Being on 40mg prednisone for 18 months causes lots of swelling. I can see the tendens on my feet. I've not seen them since I was pregnant.
The dimples on my chin are back. The shape of my face is forming and my cheeks are mine again. As is my chin and almost a jaw line.
I'm told by almost everyone that I look healthy. I hadn't realized just how sick and how unhealthy I seemed prior to the cure. This has given me an even greater appreciation for having this as a possibility and reality.
: ) Robin
28 year old Mommy of an amazing 1 year old and Wife for 2 years!
Dx-May 2007 Moderate/Severe Pancolitis - failed all medications
Proctocolectomy w/ permanent ileostomy on 02/06/09!!!
"Your mind is like a parachute, it only works when it is open." -Unknown