SO im really bummed about
my results..ive only had my bag for 4 months but im ready to get my reversal over with before graduation in may..my surgeon said i should be able to schedule my surgery next time she sees me..which was wednesday. so i wake up from my dialation and my mom doesnt say anything about
it so i asked her and she said im still bleeding from where she pulled my small intestines down to my rectum..that part is still healing. Im already connected I just dont poo out of my bum yet..just like mucus. and i was ok with not being ready yet but i was drugged up that i didnt care..but yesterday was the worst day ive had in a while! A few days ago i dropped my cell in a cup of pop ruined that phone and yesterday i dropped the other phone i had in the sink..FULL of water!! OMG
then i had to go to work from 11-3 and my homeschool teacher was coming at 5 and i still had a week and a half of work to get caught up all by 5 so i ended up not working and coming home to do my hw and was up til 1 but im caught up now
and wierdly..it seems like when i stay up late and get up early i feel so much better that day. Anyone else like that?
Oh and on top of that..today my boyfriend and I have been dating for 3 years
and were not doing anything =( that bums me out even more.
Im usually SO positive about
having my ostomy but lately ive just been really disappointed and frustrated bc they keep telling me we can reverse it soon but they keep putting it off longer and longer.. im completely fine with keeping my bag longer..just dont get my hopes up and then let me down biiig time
17, SENIOR in high school
Dx with Ulcerative Colitis on March 18,2008
Step1 Ileostomy on Nov.19,2008..waiting on Step2 =]
"The past is history, the future is a mystery. Today is a gift, that's why it's called the present"