So my panic attacks strated yesterday......I have been gettin lectures rom my family ad husband saying they cannot handle the way I am treating my body. I am having ahrder and harder timre emptying my bag it grosses me out. I weight 101.6 this am and my family says I likr this, but i dont, I had an ED ten years ago,but have never relapsed. I cardiac arrested from it, but i was also 78 lbs.....I am no where near that now.
I am panicking, trying to wean off pain killlers except for the am. I feel dead inside and I DO not know what to do...took some nause meds and xaanax,tried to take a walk, but i feel like am crawling out of my skin.CANNOY HANDLE THIS!
Chronic Lifetime Constipation, Dx IBS-C for 7 yrs
Diagnosed Colonic Inertia-Oct 2007
Total Colectomy with ileorectal anastamosis- Jan 28, 2008
Ileus with suspected leak- Feb 1, 2008, ended with four abdomal abscessses and 2 drains
Four abdominal abscesses- Feb 2008
Diagnosed with small bowel Fistula- March 6 2008
Drains removed- End of March 2008
Continued Constipation- biofeedback for 3 mo Aug 2008, Dx Rectal Inertia
Admitted with Small Bowel Obsruction April 4, 2009 and eremgency ileostomy 4/13
Loop ileostomy April 13, 2009 and still recovering woth abdominal abscesses out 4/24
Cleveland Clinic May 27 for poss. K pouch with Dr. Remzzi
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