Someone once told me that those with UC have the tendency to become controlling in other aspects of their life b/c the disease itself is so out of control. I could see that, as I was trying so hard to maintain order at work, home, school, life goals, etc. b/c internally I was literally dying.
Well, I have no longer have UC but am starting to become a super controlling b-tch. What's my deal? My husband has an extreme streak of laziness and lack of follow through, and that just tells me he has little respect for our family and home. He disagrees with that completely, but what else could it be? He doesn't pick up after himself, he leaves trash just laying around and always 'forgets' that he has chores or something that needs finishing. So, that normally leaves more work for me. Also, just having to think of what his responsibilites are, and then having to remind of him those responsibilities is more for me to do. Does that sound silly?
I don't know...I guess that I'm just really stressed and overwhelmed. I really do not feel the support of my husband, as I don't think he fully understands what my daily responsibilities consist of...and he really could care less. I think that as a mother in general we set high expectations for ourselves, but now I feel those expectations are being set for others as well. I don't know what to do...and I dont' know what to think or feel.
Any suggestions? My husband of course feels that he is entirely in the right and I need to make all the changes. Is that typical or what?
I'm sorry to unload on you like this. I really do not want to nag to people around me b/c I'm sure they all feel I can tone down my controlling ways too. I know I need to calm down a bit, but it's just really hard.
Okay...I'm going to rescue my son. He pretended to want a nap, and is now telling me (in his cute little toddler talk) that he wants out! : )
I do hope you all are having a wonderful holiday weekend!
: ) Robin
28 year old Mommy of an amazing 1 year old and Wife for 2 years!
Dx-May 2007 Moderate/Severe Pancolitis - failed all medications
Proctocolectomy w/ permanent ileostomy on 02/06/09!!!
"Your mind is like a parachute, it only works when it is open." -Unknown