When it rains, it pours. I'm just saying. Can I get a break. I think I am coping well with the recovery but the rest of my life is just all over the place.
I never would have expected my unemployment to last this long. My husband still works at the place that laid me off and he is so pissed everyday he has to go to work. He has tried so hard to get a new job that respects him but we found out today the two he really wanted already hired someone else. I try telling him it is so hard out there now. People with master's degrees are looking for paid internships. How can he compete with his BS.
I can't sleep at all. Every night I stay up later and later. I just can't relax.
My sister and best friend, aside from my Husband, thinks she is facing a lay off too. The three of us take care of each other and pay what we can when we can but money is getting so tight.
On top of that we have a family reunion this weekend and that is like walking up to the front lines! This Aunt is fighting with that Aunt, my bro won't bring his kids because his wife hates us... and everyone turns to my mom who still has her colon and could have a flare any minute.
I feel like it is time for me to step up because so many people have been taking care of me but I just don't have the motivation. In my head I still feel like their problems are petty and they just need to get over it.
Just had to rant.
I am so glad I don't have a colon because it would be pained and bleeding now if I did!
UC (Pancolitis... 90%!) December 2001
Upper GI Ulcer (2006)
J-Pouch May 2009
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