Hang in there, andorable. Remember, it could always be worse! You could be feeling like you did BEFORE you had the first surgery. At least now, you are no longer sick. The post-op pain, the infections, etc will all go away in time. Just be patient. And when it does go away, you'll feel as good as new!
And any man would be lucky to find you (or to be found by you of course). Never question your worthiness! You are just as deserving as anyone else to have a loving relationship. Remember the happy times from the past two years, know that it just wasn't meant to be, and then remind yourself that the future has so much potential! Just take things one day at a time. Put one foot in front of the other, and eventually you'll make it to happier grounds. :)
Keep your chin up! Good luck!
Diagnosed w/IBS: Oct. 2006 Diagnosed w/UC: Jan. 2007 (proctitis), July 2008 (pancolitis)
1st Surgery for J-Pouch: May 22, 2009 - need 2 more surgeries, dates TBD
Canasa ; Rowasa enemas; Lialda; Prednisone; Protonix; Remicade; Zyrtec-D; Toprol; various pain meds post-surgery;
Supplements: Women's One-a-day multi-vitamin; Super B-complex
Current Status: Aug, 2009 - Recovering from the 1st stage of J-Pouch surgery; temp ileostomy; 2 more surgeries to go as there was too much damage to create a J-pouch