Change is hard. I used to run a lot and ride competitive bike races (you can see me on my FB account firstname.lastname@example.org). I no longer could run with a bag. It's not that I cannot run; I just couldn't stand the feeling of something flopping in my pants. If I wanted to know what it felt like to have a 'male private part', God would have made me a man...hee, hee, hee. I also teach spin classes at Lifestyles. There have been many times when I am teaching and my bag would fill. Then I am sitting there with this huge buldge in my pants wondering if my class this that I just got 'excited'. Again, change is hard...but the bag saved my life. If it wasn't for the bag, I wouldn't be able to enjoy the wonderful things in life..family, friends, love, fitness. It's all about perspective. A huge help for me is taking an anti-anxiety medication, Lexapro. It has helped me to deal with these changes and understand that Life isn't always fair.
I am so sorry that these changes are so hard. You seem like a very strong person. I understand feeling insecure while teaching and wanted to get a sub for your class...just remember, the only person who really cares that you have a bag is you. I am sure everyone else that knows you thinks you are amazing.
I hope this helps.
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