I really hope you are still around to read these.
And you have been very helpful to many around here, me included, i can remember lots of advice you gave me. Now please listen to everyone else's advice.
My family has been devesated by suicide numerous times, and NONE of us are any better for it.
My mothers father shot himself when she was 6, my mother found him, as a result, her mother had to work extra hard to provide and when she died when my mother was only 16, my mother and her brother and sister were left with NO parents, and i with no grandfather or grandmother, and my child with no greatgrandparents. Please tell me, how did he killing himself help his family?
My great uncle shot himself. My cousin found him, she was 17, her brother, at 15, scubbed the blood off the swing where he shot himself, so that his mother and grandmother didnt have to do it. His life insurance didnt pay since it was suicide. So my aunt is now close to broke, because she still had to pay his medical bills and all their other bills. And has had to do it alone. They are no better.
I can go on and on, my ohter uncle shot himself, his son found him, his life insurance didnt pay either. And i went to the funeral and watched his little grandson stand at the front, crying, but not sure why,.
My best friends brother shot himself, his mother found him, she is now crazy, like actually crazy. Every year at the time of his death, they have to watch her 24/7 so that she doesnt kill herself.
Now please, tell me how are any of these people better off without their family? what did any of that accomplish? When someone commits suicide, they dont just end their life, they destroy the people around them also.
Hopefully, anyone reading this will take something away from this thread, and realize that yeah life is hard, but suicide is the selfish way out, the cowardly way out. Its so much braver to face your struggles and not give in.
UC for 8 years, before finally kicking its butt and having a permanent ileostomy April 17 2007!
-I have gone to find myself, if i get back before i return, keep me here-