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Chasblah
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   Posted 11/23/2009 9:44 PM (GMT -7)   
i don't know if my hormones are all in a whack, or what the heck is going on, but i feel so down lately.
i just can't shake this funk.
I'm usually a very optimistic person. And i know i have no right to feel bad.
I've had down times like everyone, and can usually snap out of it, but this has been going on for about 2 weeks now.
I don't want to have to take antideppresants, but i might have to.
I keep focusing on the sad things. I went to a pet store to check out the fish for my daughters 2nd birthday present, and all i could think about was how sad the puppies must be to not have a home. I'm crying even now thinking about it.
And i can't even bring myself to read my people magazine b/c i know it's going to have sad stories i can't handle right now.
i'm such a sap.
i gotta shake this.
it doesn't even really have to do with my ostomy, although that just adds to my down attitude.
i guess i'm going through a valley.......

just sharing.
Chassity
28 yrs. old. married with one beautiful daughter (born 11/20/07)
-diagnosed with severe pancolitis u/c 2002 had total colectomy 12/19/08; emergency surgery due to abscess-had to redo ileostomy and switch to left side 12/25/08; 2/15/09 found blood clot in superior mesenteric vein (prob. from inf. and surgery inflammation)
coumadin, prenatal vit.
(temporary ileostomy....maybe)

"Things turn out the best for those who make the best of the way things turn out."


suebear
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Date Joined Feb 2006
Total Posts : 5697
   Posted 11/24/2009 7:07 AM (GMT -7)   
Have you considered PTSD? You have been through a lot and it just might be catching up with you. If your sadness continues I would suggest you talk with someone.

Sue
dx proctitis in 1987
dx UC in 1991, was stable until 1998

1998 started prednisone, asacol, pentasa, nortriptylene, ativan, 6MP, rowasa enemas and suppositories, hydrocortisone enemas, tried the SCD diet, being a vegetarian, omega 3s, flax, pranic healing, yoga, acupuncture, probiotics

2000 lost all my B-12 stores and became anemic

2001 opted for j-pouch surgery- now living life med-free


jblue65
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Total Posts : 381
   Posted 11/24/2009 11:08 AM (GMT -7)   
Chassity-
I am so sorry you are going through this... I have a history of depression and have been on and off anti depressants for 20 yrs. After my first surgery ( colectomy and ileostomy) I was really depressed. I felt like I had lost something and I had no hope that I would ever feel well again.

The crying over the puppies and not being able to read People magazine surely sounds more than just the blues. After my second and third surgeries, I also felt sad and anxious. I think that suebear has hit on something- PTSD. This is definitely a traumatic and stressful- no joke.

After going through soooo much there is no doubt that PTSD affects many UC/Crohn's or anyone dealing with a long term chronic illness.

I would at the very least contact your family doctor and discuss this with him/her. In the time being, I would suggest keep as active as possible. Get out of the house and do things.

I hope you feel better soon.
Jackie, 44
Pancolitis, DX October 06
Lexapro, Synthroid, Protonix- NO MORE PRED!!!

Surgery March 13th- Total Colectomy
Jpouch surgery to be done in 3 steps
Step 2- June 23rd
Step 3- REVERSAL:::::: October 23rd -YEAH!


inkboom
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Date Joined Feb 2009
Total Posts : 8
   Posted 11/24/2009 11:37 AM (GMT -7)   
Hey Chassity,

I know exactly what it feels like, cuz Ive been down that "valley" too. Although during the period of my 3 operations (2 of which were lifesaving) I never felt down. However, now that everything goes back to normal, we have so much time that we start thinking of the "dark side" muhuhaha. That's normal, and you DO have the right to feel "bad," i believe, because what you have been through is no joke. BUT although its normal, you have to FIGHT it back. The depression is a very real problem but there IS a solution-- one that unfortunately is in our own hands alone. We have to keep doing things to keep our mind at peace, that's why I started taking a foreign language class, for example.

I invite you to see what I did with my ostomy career at
www.ohpoo.net

It promises to be about 9 and a half minutes of entertainment but after that, you better look up Espanol Classes in the Yellow Pages! Just DO it, I know you CAN!

schrek-chewbacca hunk
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   Posted 11/24/2009 2:20 PM (GMT -7)   

Interesting as my primary and GI said that after the 14 surgeries I have had in the last 2 years and my charkot disease (bone crumbling of the feet and ankles) where I cannot walk - I have been having trouble keeping my emotions in check (crying at everything) - I feel like a vulcan from star trek who has lost his logical mind.  I also am having bad sleep disorder - like not sleeping for days at a time and then my body just passes out. - The doc said this is classic PTSD and not depression frfom the clinical sense.  He is going to send me to a shrink who specializes in PTSD.  I think we are on to something here.

love

bob


crohnielass
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   Posted 11/24/2009 3:21 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi i think we all go through this at some stage my emotions have been all over the place this last year i am on tablets for anxiety and they have helped take the edge off If you feel you need to go on them to get yourself on an even keel then do so, don't suffer you have been through enough you don't need to be anti's forever good luck and hope that you soon feel better Bev x
Diagnosed with crohn's at 13 now 42
resection, right hemi 1993 In remmision from 93 till last sept with no meds or docs
2 resections small bowel  and fistula jan 09 and given temp stoma.  reversal 1st week of Jan. Meds:Pentasa 500mg 3x day,  B12 shots, every 3 months, iron syrup,loperimide,folic acid,  citalopram 60mg (for Anxiety.)


flchurchlady
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   Posted 11/24/2009 6:02 PM (GMT -7)   
Chassity,
Thanks for sharing. I'm sorry you're feeling down. (((big hug))) You should make an appointment with your doctor to tell them what's going on. It might just be that your Vitamin B levels or thyroid are off. Are you premenstrual? I can feel emotionally out-of-whack for up to 2 weeks before my period. If it's none of the above, you could always try St. John's Wort, which is a natural herbal antidepressant that you can buy the store.

During this Thanksgiving week, try to take some time each day to focus on all of the wonderful people in your life who love you and all of the reasons you have to be thankful. That always brings a smile to my face and helps bring things back into perspective. Exercising or walking out in the fresh air helps, too.

I hope you and your doctor can figure out what's going on, so you can get back to your happy self soon! :-)

Love ya,
Cecilia
Dx'd Crohn's in '99 at age 28. Proctocolectomy and ileostomy in '06.
Disease-free and medicine-free since surgery and very thankful to be healthy again.


privey
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Date Joined Oct 2009
Total Posts : 453
   Posted 11/24/2009 8:56 PM (GMT -7)   
Chassity,
I'm sorry you are having a rough time and hope things get better for you soon. I was down and had to pull up by my shoestrings but think I am normal and you are normal. This isn't the life we'd planned for ourselves and it is an adjustment. I'm on an antidepressant and that seems to have helped me a lot once the doc changed me from the CR that wasn't absorbing to just a regular pill. I hope you and your doc can come up some reasonable fixes for you.
Take care I care.

Chasblah
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   Posted 11/24/2009 9:48 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks for the support guys. It really does make me feel better. You're great. And you even made me laugh ;)

Honestly, i don't think this has much to do with my ostomy. I don't even think about it. and i don't feel sorry for myself.

I guess it could be PTSD. I'll have to look it up. Would it just spring up? I've been doing so well. Even now, when i think back, it doesn't get to me.....only if i really really concentrate on what was at risk (you know, my life, blah blah blah) does it hit.
*sigh*
I did think it could be low vit. B, so i gave myself a shot tonight and took a multivitamin. I shared with my husband about my feelings and had a good cry (i've been trying so hard to NOT cry)
If i can't suck it up after the Holiday, i'll go see the Dr.
You know how it is. I don't want to medication dependant like i was for so many years.

i told my husband i hope i'm pregnant :) but i don't think i am :(
Chassity
28 yrs. old. married with one beautiful daughter (born 11/20/07)
-diagnosed with severe pancolitis u/c 2002 had total colectomy 12/19/08; emergency surgery due to abscess-had to redo ileostomy and switch to left side 12/25/08; 2/15/09 found blood clot in superior mesenteric vein (prob. from inf. and surgery inflammation)
i only take vitamins now, when I WANT to. :)
(temporary ileostomy....maybe)

"Things turn out the best for those who make the best of the way things turn out."


Chasblah
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Date Joined Feb 2007
Total Posts : 788
   Posted 11/24/2009 9:58 PM (GMT -7)   
Inkboom.
I just went to your site and.....IT TOTALLY ROCKED!
Way to go! (sound like a bag cover to me ;)
It really gave me a good laugh. I needed that.
thanks.
Chassity
28 yrs. old. married with one beautiful daughter (born 11/20/07)
-diagnosed with severe pancolitis u/c 2002 had total colectomy 12/19/08; emergency surgery due to abscess-had to redo ileostomy and switch to left side 12/25/08; 2/15/09 found blood clot in superior mesenteric vein (prob. from inf. and surgery inflammation)
i only take vitamins now, when I WANT to. :)
(temporary ileostomy....maybe)

"Things turn out the best for those who make the best of the way things turn out."

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