I know exactly what it feels like, cuz Ive been down that "valley" too. Although during the period of my 3 operations (2 of which were lifesaving) I never felt down. However, now that everything goes back to normal, we have so much time that we start thinking of the "dark side" muhuhaha. That's normal, and you DO have the right to feel "bad," i believe, because what you have been through is no joke. BUT although its normal, you have to FIGHT it back. The depression is a very real problem but there IS a solution-- one that unfortunately is in our own hands alone. We have to keep doing things to keep our mind at peace, that's why I started taking a foreign language class, for example.
I invite you to see what I did with my ostomy career at www.ohpoo.net
It promises to be about
9 and a half minutes of entertainment but after that, you better look up Espanol Classes in the Yellow Pages! Just DO it, I know you CAN!