sorry to hear. I can relate though...I've been through alot, sometimes it seemed as though Iwas put here as a practice dummy for the surgeons...in 1995 I had 11 surgeries in 7 months...didn't think I was ever going to leave the hospital, anything that could possibly go wrong did...wasn't the surgeons fault, or mine, just the way the cards were dealt.
try and not look too far ahead, at least not now while your still healing and things are farthest from 'normal' for you...concentrate on today...sometimes it takes going from hour to hour...eventually, things will level out, and the true healing will begin and after a while, you'll find that you've gotten through and it will all be a distant memory.
take care and try and keep positive.
Crohns since age 6...46 now.
No meds ever worked, 37 surgeries since age 11, intestines have ruptured 3 times. no large, very very little small left. Illeo since 89