mini melt-down at school about surgery and other stuff.

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   Posted 10/6/2011 12:12 PM (GMT -6)   
today i broke down at school after class .
it's just now sinking in that i am HAVING SURGERY !
i am so overwhelmed i feel like my life is going to drastically change i personally dont struggle with self immage problems but pooping from my side emptying it out into a toliet PRETTY SURE i will acidentily get it on my hand ..... iam just freaking out i found out that i am going to an alternative school that is connected still with my school its so people can basically move at their own pace! I know i need this because i am credits behind but now my electives are going to be dropped and i am really sad about it . i even cried to my german teacher because i <3 love her class so much.
I know i shouldnt worry a lot of people are telling me ill be ok but my emotions are scared shakehead

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   Posted 10/6/2011 3:01 PM (GMT -6)   
Its normal to be a little crazy about things right now. Yes poop probably will get on your hand at some point. Just wipe it off with toilet paper then wash them good! At home I have alochol wipes by the toilet and can just wipe it off with those, then wash my hands.
If you ever have kids, you will have to deal with far more disgusting things than a little poop on your hand!
If you are having trouble with school then the alternate is the best way to go that will give you less to worry about.
UC for 8 years, before finally kicking its butt and having a permanent ileostomy April 17 2007!
-I have gone to find myself, if i get back before i return, keep me here-
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   Posted 10/6/2011 6:54 PM (GMT -6)   
I agree, very normal. You're doing something scary, and guess what, you're scared. And it is sad that being sick is making you lose out on the class you love.... but try to think about how you'll be healthy now, and won't have to keep losing out on things in the future.

Yeah, poop happens.... the part that I found so hard to imagine was that I would feel SO MUCH better, and then things like poop on the hands don't matter so much. I like the coloplast bags because I think they are easier to clean.

Some crying now is healthy -- helps you release.

Remember, your life IS going to change, that's the goal -- it's going to change so you are healthy again.
49 years old, female. Sick for way too long with Crohn's (or possibly UC) Proctocolectomy and permanent ileostomy in Feb 2011. Surgery for lingering perineal wound on Sept 26. Other than the wound, been feeling healthier than I have in years.

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   Posted 10/6/2011 6:56 PM (GMT -6)   
Dont' worry. I don't blame you for feelign overwhelmed!!! But people are right; you'll be fine in the long run. Of course this is going to disrupt your life for a while. But you have to think of the bigger picture and what it's giving you. It's not a perfect situation. It's ok to be upset! We've been there and we are here for you.

I was totally weirded out by getting poop on me!!! I used to wear gloves to change my wafer. But seriously you just get used to it and you wash your hands and it's really not a huge deal. It's rare that you get a bunch on your hand. Plus, like summerstorm said, there are tons grosser things in life. I like to think of my poo as newborn baby poo now. it makes it less gross because think of moms everywhere dealing with that on a daily basis, and they have to really dig in. We just empty and move on our merry way :)
Stephanie, 29 years old

March 2000-Diagnosed Crohn's Colitis
(Tried every drug imaginable, but lived 10 years with daily diarrhea)
March 18, 2010-Total Proctocolectomy and Permanent Ileostomy! :)
(Now med free, 4 subsequent procedures to correct blockages at stoma site)

Stoma named Zoe...She's my best bud!! :)

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   Posted 10/6/2011 9:04 PM (GMT -6)   

It's okay...several weeks before surgery, I would have to keep myself from starting to cry just walking down the hallways at work when I started thinking about surgery...I usually cried a little when I got home.....but, I actually had a dream/vision a few weeks before surgery of me getting out of the hospital bed and walking......amazingly, it happened pretty much like the dream..

So, try and think of how things will be after surgery..focus on that...your mind will get ready for it...

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