I'm doing better, though still hving some issues. I go to pelvic floor therapy and wills tart electro biofeedback on Friday. Basically, my muscles were out of work for 12 months and so are slack. But the therpaist says they are otherwise totally fit and very strong, they just need to relearn coordination. Aside from that I am fine.
Work is another matter. Massive bad moral and intrigue going on at other levels. Lots of back and forth about signing my contract and finally only got six months for reasons that hve nothing to do with me or my performance. Long talk with my boss today that I want to change my life, but I want to get these publications out first so at least I have something to show for my time here (the exec dir had been blocking publication of everything). Let's say things are not being run on anything resembling any kind of democracy. The government ministries that are funding the place are getting wind of the problems here. Oh my. I'm glad to get six months to reorganize myself professionally and can buy a few more things for my apartment in the meantime. Clothes too,, etc.
I'm looking at it this way: I have had this job, earning a darn good salary, throughout the 12 months time of all thse operations, from ending the colitis to having take-down and the non-ill body I will have the rest of my life. So the job was there to provide me with the floor of security I needed to get me through it. And now all that is over, I can or have to determine what my next step is. It's a stepping stone, not a loss.