Posted 4/24/2013 11:38 AM (GMT -7)
I can relate. I didn't mention it in my previous post.
I was hospitalized for 6 weeks for my colectomy. 8 days post op, I was taken into ICU, had an emergency ileostomy done. I had sepsis and a life threatening blood blot by my liver. The leakage was stated by the 2 surgeons and numerous residences as being the worst ever dealt with. Wound bled and remained opened, wound vac, drain tube, back pain, atrophic legs, vein pain from the IV, the list goes on.
My morphine, though stated that it would not be addictive, was drastically increased. For the next 4 weeks, I was automatically given 4 mg/hour, with an additional 1mg/10 minutes at my dispensing =9 mg/hour. When they felt safe enough contemplating discharge, they took me off the PCA pump and was given 4 mg/4 hours via oral. Going from 9 every hour to 4 every 4, the withdrawal was unbelievable. The sweats, shakes, turrets shouting/cursing at everyone including all my visitors, shouting 'I need more' like an addict. I was so pissed, on top of everything....this was unreal.
I recall the doctors telling me that it will take time. I discharged everything they told me because of my anger. But I hope you, because it's coming from me, will believe that it will get better. Withdrawal isn't easy. If you can't get into a pain management program, you have to do it diligently. Be kind to yourself. I told the wound nurse that came to my home quite soon after discharge my fears on addiction, and she told me that I was too soon post op to have these thoughts. If it hurts, take something for the pain, you need to rest, sleep, recover. I was trying to go cold turkey. But I didn't, I took low dosages as needed. I eventually got over the hump. As you will if you haven't already!!
Thinking of you!