I guess I got my hopes up too high for having surgery this year. Just had a call from my surgeon and while he can see me September 4, there is no way my surgery is going to be until well into the new year. I was so hoping to put this behind me, whether it was a reconnect or a permenant ileo, I was prepared either way. Hubby is leaving to go overseas after Christmas and will be gone until April. I guess I just wanted it to be done before he went. Now I have to prepare myself for another year of waiting.
I know that I shouldn't be disappointed. I am healthier now than I have ever been, eating whatever I like and doing things that I never thought I would. Funny how one can look so forward to something and then be so crushed when it's taken away. This is probably the most upset I have been since waking up with an unexpected stoma......
Perhaps a few days away in the sunshine will change my perspective.
Sorry for the vent.