I hope things are getting for you. Even though getting the bag is the best thing i have ever done for myself, It may be a little harder for someone else to get use to. It sounds like you are ready to get better and have a normal life. Thats how I knew for sure it was the right thing to do. I think you should talk to your GI and your surgen. How I see it, is , how could it be worse than living in the bathroom, being in pain, feeling sick and tired and being down right misserable every day of you life. Having the ostomy has completely given me my life back. Hosestly I forget it is even there most of the time. You need to plan this so if you do decide to have it done be sure you like where they will place the stoma. I have heard of some peoples being right at their waist line or above their waist line and it seems to cause problems with thier pants. I would do it again. Everyone is different but my advice is if you want to enjoy life and living then you should really condsider having the surgery. That is my advice to anyone who suffers from CD. Five years ago my Dr.'s would say your to young to have an ostomy , lets try this and lets try that. You know the saying if I only knew then what i know now, Well, I would have had the surgery five years ago. Some dr.s said even now I am young to have to have this. But its like I told him, I am way to young to be stuck in my house sick as a dog every day of my life too. I hate that I have this disease and have to have a bag , but in my eyes it is a no brainer. I wish you all the luck in the world and I believe you will make the right decision for yourself. your welcome to e mail me anytime.