It's completely normal to be nervous, no one wants to have elective surgery. A couple of things really helped me with the temp ostomy, first I looked at it as if it were a science experiment. More than that, though, I tried to put in perspective that the ileostomy gave me my health back immediatly and for that I was grateful. I knew immediatey upon waking from surgery that my UC was gone, no more discomfort in the abdomen. The ileostomy allowed me to start living again, going on walks and hikes; those things were very important to me. Take advantage of an at-home visiting ET nurse, their knowledge, help, and support in dealing with an ostomy is invaluable. I wish you as much success as I had, one day hopefully, your UC will be a distant memory.
dx proctitis in 1987
dx UC in 1991, was stable until 1998
1998 started prednisone, asacol, pentasa, nortriptylene, ativan, 6MP, rowasa enemas and suppositories, hydrocortisone enemas, tried the SCD diet, being a vegetarian, omega 3s, flax, pranic healing, yoga, acupuncture, probiotics
2000 lost all my B-12 stores and became anemic
2001 opted for j-pouch surgery- now living life med-free