So after posting forever not really belonging here, I am now an offical ostomate! WOO HOO!
I had my surgery 4-17 and got home last Monday, but didn't really feel much like getting on the computer till today. Surgery went well, but when I woke up I was so upset I couldn't believe what I had done and I hated it. They put this clear bag on me and it was really gross, and the nurses and CNAs were emptying it for me, becaue they had to keep up with how much and they would empty it into a container and then just set the container anywhere and I had to look at it, yuck, lol. Anyway, once I got home and got into the non see trhough bag it was better, until I saw my self naked for the first time. I was so upset. I got down to 122, I never thought I woould be upset about being too thin, lol. So there I was all skeletony, staples all down my middle, brusies everywher from IVs and that bag hanging off me, I just cried and cried. I was having alot of trouble with gas, and then I got where I was eating regulary and that stopped. Anyway, I still was having trouble with it, but then something great happened, I sat through a whole movie withough having to go to the bathroom! So, I got a little better feeling about it. Then I drank a milkshake, still feeling a little better about. Then today, something wonderful happened ( most people would find this dumb, but alot of you have had UC or something similar and will understand) I went on a car trip and DID NOT worry about where a bathroom was! Then on the way home, I stopped and got some fries and ate them in the car, even though I knew we might get stuck in traffic and there might not be a batrhoom, and I drank another milkshake, also in the car! I haven't had a milkshake in probably 5 or 6 years. And I haven't been able to go on a car trip or eat in a car without worrying about a bathroom for 8 years. So now, even though I am still kind of grossed out when I have to clean it, I don't think I am doing it right, lol. That today made me realize I did make the right decdsion!
I want to say that you guys have been super helpful and i hope that now that I actually belong I can be as helpful to other people as you have to me!