Hello everyone. I trust I am in the right place after reading many of the postings. You all should be given medals for what you have endured. I too have a Ileostmy, but have never been a vicim to Crohns or colitis. My problems were the exact opposite. 2 1/2 years ago I went in for surgery to remove an ovary suspected of cancer. While in there, the Doc discovered a tumor in my Colon/Rectum area the size of a golf ball. It was suspected to be endometriosis. They tried to treat it, but it grew, and was soon a "must have" operation. They removed the tumor, and I was thankful it was not cancerous. Appr. 4 days after I came home, my bowel functions stopped completely. for the next 10 months, I would be admitted to the hospital with a NG tube running golytly through me. This would happen about every 3 weeks. I would eventually have a bowel movement, and be good for about a week, and then back up again and thus start the vomitting, cramping, and fatigue all over again. My surgeon decided that he would go in, and take out what ever part of my colon was causing all this disruption in my life. He took 5 1/2 feet of my colon leaving me about 11 inches left. Guess what...it happened again, and he had to take another 6 inches in less then a years time. Things seemed to be OK for me, I had 5 inches of colon, and was still only having about 3 bowel movements a day. Well, this past New Years Eve day, I awoke with such pain and was so sick. I was transported to the hospital here in town, and told I was obstucted in the small bowel. This little adventure lasted 58 days, and took 3 emergency surgerys, and finally a pull through ileostomy. So, bottom line...8 surgerys, always trying to prevent the "bag", and look where it got me. I won't lie, or sugar coat my feelings, I have been home from the hospital 3 weeks, and am really struggling with all of this. I hate this bag. It hurts all the time, my skin is raw and oozy around the stoma, and for the life of me, I do not understand how people can say this is a good thing. You all sound like wonderful people here, I pray that someday I will be as positive as you all, and happy too. For now, I cry a lot, I try to think of how this could have been avoided, I lie in bed night after night wondering if my husband really is as OK with all this as he says. Does the pain ever go away? Will the ointments and gells and Maylox ever heal my skin? Have any of you been sent home with a feeding tube, and open wound? If so, does the hole from the tube heal without a "hole type" scar? Did your wound actually heal to the point of closure? or does it always look like an open wound? I have so many many questions, and the books don't have all the answers. I'm sorry if I have bombarded you all with my thoughts and questions, but I would love some feed back. I need some feed back.