Oh my, I've been there, too. And I know I will go there again! In fact, I've posted here what you just posted. We all share an experience not many have to go through. What has helped me was accepting that losing my colon caused me to go through the same stages of loss and grief that people go through when they lose limbs, or even when they lose a loved one. Also, being here, in these forums, and understanding I am NOT alone. I am 31, and married, and I drive my husband bonkers, because I'm always asking him stuff like, "How can you still love me?". This may be TMI, but after my surgery I refused to be intimate for awhile, I wanted to, but it was just too difficult, and I felt so disfigured. I cried the first time I tried. My husband was so supportive and caring. Those that love you, will continue to love you. You are still beautiful to them. You will still find new people who will love you and find you beautiful. Stoma or not. And those that don't - well - they aren't worth your time.
UC diagnosed: December, 1999
Asacol: 1600 MG daily
Immuran: 150 MG daily
Prednisone: 4 MG daily (Woo-Hooo! Getting lower and lower!)
Remicade: Infusion every 7 weeks
Probiotics 4 billion CFU Daily
Glutamine 500 mg 2x Daily
OFF all meds!! Liver failure, and emergency surgery as soon as liver levels return to normal. ACK!
Surgery August 24, 2007. Home now!