Hey Jim, I think the jitters are normal. I don't get 'em, but I would have a year ago.
When I first learned that I had cancer I was a wreck. Much worse than most of you. I hated the cancer and my reaction to it. I knew that I had to change my ways, or be miserable.
I decided to do all that I could to fix that over which I had some control and not worry about that which I couldn't control. I have worked hard on this mind set and it has worked to quite a degree. I worry very little about my PSA and its results. It just doesn't bother me much. A year ago, I would have been sweating bullets over it and being unpleasant to my bride and waking up at 0300 to do some useless worrying.
I hope this doesn't sound like bragging. I only managed it because I was such a complete weenie (cowardly, in fact) about the whole thing. I had to change my ways because I was so unsuccessful the way I was behaving.
In fact, you have been a model for the rest of us, Jim. PCa and low T and you have won. Beaten both of them and your bride still tolerates you. So does my bride, but that says more about her than it does me. (I was going to do a smiley face here, but my last sentence was just the truth.)
Best to you, Jim,
Bill
August of 2006, PSA up to 4.2 from 2.7 one year ago.
October free and total PSA 12% free and 5.0 total.
A month, or so later, 4.7.
Late in the year decide on Image Guided IMRT.
Begin 43 treatments on January 23, 2007 and finish on March 23.
Four month post treatment PSA is 1.9.
Seven month PSA is 0.8.