I think I've got my voice back and my wits about
me, so it's time to thank you all for the kind thoughts and wishes, which I've read over and over again. And a special thank you to Susan (Myman) for being my voice and telling you so eloquently that which I could not bring myself to do.
I've been doing a lot of thinking over the past few days and thought about
when I was first diagnosed. I had the same feelings all of you had when told you had cancer, but, at least in my case, even though I feared the worst, I kept telling myself I had a 50-50 chance - it could go either way. But this time, I'd been lulled into a false sense of (relative) security - the last two CT scans, in September and November, each showed no change. And that was what I expected this time. It never entered my mind that things could get worse. Stupid me. As Susan wrote to me "This disease is insidious" and I let it get the upper hand for a while.
It's taken me four days, but I'm back in fighting shape thanks to all of you and your kind, kind words and thoughts. I originally come from Brooklyn, NY, so it's natural for me to say "thank youse all" - you're the greatest.
PS - Of course I've had Carol read each post as it came in and she's also eternally grateful to all of you.
Post Edited (Gordy) : 2/12/2008 3:59:10 PM (GMT-7)