Your feelings and fears are quite normal and, as you can see, quite common. One of the wisest things i was told at the start of this journey was to allow myself to
open up to those around me and let them know what was going on. Several of the guys have mentioned that the support they found was wonderful. One of the BIGGEST silver linings in all of this was discovering how much people cared. It is something to treasure after all the hoopla is past. I now have wonderful, much deeper relationships with so many people. Reach out to people and accept their help. It will help you emotionally, mentally, and physically.
Also, I hate to say it, but you've already lost control of the information. Once you tell anyone, you no longer have control over where it goes. Imagine the stress you will experience over fretting about
who knows? The paranoia that people might know, or be talking about
you. That kind of thing is damaging in the extreme to your psyche. Let it go. Tell people, then all that fear will be gone.
It's just not as big a deal as you might think that people know the side affects. you can also say that you are lucky and things are just fine - if anyone would ever be rude enough to bring it up. you will mostly find people are wonderful. I did.
47 at Diagnosis.
Father died of Pca 4/07 at 86.
Saved both nerve bundles.